Rode x today. Still pretty lame. Got s canter to the left, but not the right. Probably still sore from the injection. At least his left hock is fused! To the right he was not so great. I took him in the field and he just booked it, he wanted to GO!! Really fun, but once we get back in the arena he was still sore and didn't get any better, so I just hopped off. Rode dru, he was really fun! Didn't do much in the ring, just warmed up. His head was ok, but didn't really focus on that. Went in the field with him, he was hyper. If a horse passed him he would freak out, start jumping up and down. I was surprised I stayed on. I've seen him with his owner and he can be tough to ride. I kind of went out with the expectation I was going to get hurt because I couldn't handle what he was going to do. Pretty happy I stayed on! The other rider was really good about it too so that helped a lot.
Went to pineland today and oh my goodness it's amazing! I want to be someplace like that, someday. Not now, but someday. I was thinking about dreams today and how I never thought I would be here with what I have. And i never picture myself at a place like pineland, but it is possible. I'm not who I was, and won't always be who I am.

Actually wanted to ride today. For the past week I haven't wanted to, just have had no interest. I was working and around horses all day. But did not want to ride. Partly because I don't feel like i do well on x. Today I have wanted to ride. Even though I can't I'm actually kind of relieved I wanted to. I was wondering how long it would last. Vet comes tomorrow. We shall see how x is.

Haven't ridden in a few days, been super busy! X was really lame sat in lessons. He's been kind of on and off the past few weeks. Today it was really bad. I felt so bad watching him. This time he didn't work out of it. He usually wants to canter when he's sore, this time he couldn't do anything and the canter was really hurting him. Nothing helped. He didn't go back in his paddock because he could barley walk. The vets coming to see if he needs another injection. Wondering if he doesn't get better where I'm going to go... I'm thinking Lola.

Really good rides the past two days. Yesterday we ventured out into the field! I had heard some stories so I was a little skeptical, but in the end he was pretty awesome!! He listened perfectly and it really loosened him up. The ride before that was ok, I just don't feel like I know him. He was kind of gimpy, which makes his trot really uncomfortable and the rest of the ride just isn't as food as it could be. Today I started out in the field. We walked a bunch through tall grass and leg yielded and did circles. Anything to get him to put pressure on his hocks. After that we did some trot and leg yielding, and of course cantered! He got so excited. The whole way back he could barley contain himself walking. But he still listened very well. The field was an awesome warm up because he didn't limp around hardly at all in the ring and he didn't feel bad in the field either. I think our minds are both off of his legs in the field and it's more fun, so I don't feel so bad. When we got to the arena he was taking off my hands trying to go fast. One downside from warming up in the field. But I'll take it!

Decent ride yesterday. X is so much different than Dru. His trot is much bouncier and harder to sit. When we first started out he was pretty gimpy and worked out of most of it, but still had some issues in his right hock. At first his trot doesn't really push you up because he's avoiding putting weight on it, which makes posting a pain the in the butt, literally. We did some leg yield, and extensions and canter trans. In a circle I push his butt over and force him to put weight on his hock. The last time I rode I did a lot more of it, so I'm thinking when he's like that I'll need to do more. The other girl who rides him also said he didn't feel so great today. He doesn't canter right away all the time, and I think it may be because I'm not asking him clear enough? Anyways, we did some tests after that. They were decent training tests, but we were fighting with each other. He wasn't sure of what I was asking all of the time, and I was frustrated that he wasn't listening. We need to figure each other out.

I'm not as upset as I thought I would be about having to say goodbye to Dru. Maybe because I can still see him. It hurt that I could never see chess again. I'll probably keep in contact with his owner and hopefully be able to see him even after he leaves pff. Now that I'm around jade more we seem to be getting closer. I've always thought I hated mares because they can be so darn annoying. But the relationships you have with them are so much better, I'm almost positive I want one now. Jade is so cute and snuggles and is lovable. That's something geldings just aren't, and it's something I really want.